More or less I have realised I am confused. Too much confused. I am going to do a core dump, full of weird characters and useless stuff. This is for me only.

Why do I love some one when the other one has become so indifferent to me or am wrong or what the hell is wrong? Why I am not able to stop it? Why cant I just overcome this also? Why I am doing all this? Why I am asking these questions to myself? Am I again making some kind of mistake? Am I again going into wrong direction? Again means, yes I have been traveling in wrong lane.

Having an ugly face wasn’t enough. I never paid attention to my looks and this carelessness is now paying me back with interest.

My love, lolz, I doubt myself, do I really love?

Crap. Total crap. I guess I will follow Rajneesh. While I will be bathing I will say F word 5 or 10 or even more than 100 times. I need to dump my anger, my dissatisfaction.

Last thing, I was not happy alone but I was less disturbed when I was alone.

Yes, the story is same. I have changed. I never evaluated this change but I have changed a lot.

I used to sleep around 1 or 2 am and wake up around 7 am. Now I wake up around 9 am. I am changed.

My waistlines has changed from 29 to 31.

I TRIED to change my hairstyle.

So after so many changes, did I really change?

I guess I did.