I am going to be 29 soon. Dont know how to react. I am earning well as I was always. I am committed to some one and she is also committed to me, I am not sure about the latter part of the sentence. But I am in love and I have felt it. Its so strong that you can do anything. Anything. You can kill or die or commit suicide. I have lost my mind and thats not enough, I have still not found it.
Now at this moment, I am just telling my self, hey dude, she isnt the only thing in this world. Come. Lets move on. But I dont know what is holding me back there. Why I keep going back. One of my very good friend said, buddy you are deep into it. Better get out.
I got a very good job. Lost a very good chance to move to UK. Many more things. Things I want to list down. But again I cant. I hate myself for this. I have completely lost myself.
Anyway, I will be fine. See I am again telling myself. I am not OK. Hope I will be OK tomorrow.
