Lately I have realised a very horrifying truth about myself. I am full of hatred. Hate and prejudice. I wasn’t like this. But now I am like a maniac who either wants to murder some one or commit suicide. Geez!!!
What has gone wrong? 
Too many things.
To start with
- I suffer from Vitiligo. Vitiligo isn’t some thing that renders a human being motionless or hampers any movement. It does some thing else. It demotivates. Inferiority complex. Impairing your sense and strength of making decisions that may affect your life. Its a genetic defect hence less or no chances of recovery. Why me?
- I didn’t finish my education even when my parents, specially my dad, keep telling me to do so. Sorry dad.
- I opted for a career in most stressing trade in this world. Software development.
- I chose Open Source technologies.
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- As it was not all I chose web development. Cross browser compatibility is a pain in ____. (Fill in the blanks yourself.)
- I have to work on code bases that are either or all of following
- worst, common
- not documented, very common
- f##ks all known coding standards, not so common but still I have seen code in production that has database connections being made on every page and in fact twice on same page.
- Core libs have been hacked w/out any hint leaving you to wonder why the hell prototype doesn’t work same way on this page. Rare but have happened with me. One can extend a library but no it have been hacked. Why?
- Database is not indexed. Not even a single table.
- Too much abstraction, you dont understand anything, making you realise that you are an “a” hole.
- HTML is messed up. One ID for all elements. Who cares for XHTML1.0 compliance.
- User accessibility is a French or worst a Tamil word.
- Oh, I also fell in Love.
The last one is the main reason for all my hatred.
